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I cannot seem to sleep well these days. Overthinking is a bad habit that I couldn't change instantly, it takes time. I was prescribed with clonazepam, yet again. Taking one would show I am weak, I don't want to disappoint myself but it will shut the noises in my head and make me sleep soundly. Anyway, I found a band on Soundcloud and their music is quite good. They're called Tropic of Youth. As I close my eyes and sink into their music, I couldn't help but just drown in an ocean deep of indie goodness. I love...

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It is close to 7am on a rainy Thursday morning. To match the gloomy weather, here is a band that dearest Shasha reposted on Soundcloud. You can always trust her music choices, she has a gift when it comes to this.  The Japanese House has a subtle The 1975 vibe and it is incredibly chilled for its own good. To say that I am in love is an understatement.  "...but you know I still wake up with you every morning like we're still dead" ...

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I was awakened by an explosion of sound at 4am. Could've sworn I would wake up with a heart attack if that's going to happen any time soon without me knowing beforehand (through lightning). It has been raining -- both outside and inside. You see, I don't really have anything to cry about, there's nothing. Sometimes the human body gets too exhausted because of our daily activities and it needs a break -- I need a break or else I will have a breakdown but I like it, I enjoy it. I love what I am currently doing...

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Ignore the exaggeration up there. I made a cover of Robbers only because of what has happened within this week.  This is the only platform where I can talk about myself without feeling the need to apologise for doing so. I am trying my best to refrain from talking about this particular topic because I know it is annoying and I know people are tired of hearing about my stories. I have therapy tomorrow and I honestly thought I would be fine by now. I am numb and lost. Can't you hear my cry for help? No? It...

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[Robbers - The 1975] Whispers in my head told you to stay,  stay. Strangers in the dark coexisted, funny how life works. Beautiful brains like yours belong somewhere extravagant, exhilarating yet familiar. Constant cravings for something intense and passionate. You let your words out without any hesitation and it is admirable. It doesn't have to end now unless you let it. Cowardly actions are despised by people like me, but who am I to say when I myself am a cowardly lioness. Time chases you despite how fast you run, it is okay to stay still. Breathe Revolving...

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Hey guys! This post will be short and slightly cheesy, for me that is.  You know how some people were born to seek for love and affection and others chose their goals over love? I think I was meant to be the latter. After tons and tons of heartbreaks and bad timings, I have realized that it has always been my goals. Maybe I was too emotionally and mentally involved with achieving my goals to let myself fall for another 'perfect' human being. I was given the chance to, but I just didn't know how.   My life has...

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I have been quite busy today and I loved every minute of it as I needed a productive distraction. Mims was given an opportunity to film a piece for Collective Arts in a rustic boutique in Kiulap, L'Orient, and he was kind enough to invite me to come along and help. I will post a few photos of the activity. It was worth it, I had fun -- I am thankful. (photos were taken by yours truly) ...

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[But I Do - Now, Now] I am currently in between tables in my office, hiding in the dark attempting to avoid the true darkness that is about to resurface.  I am terrified. A year ago, the constant reminder that I gave myself was "it's okay to not be strong. Sometimes a person can hold this much" But at the moment, I am forcing myself to fight it. I need to be strong for myself and everyone else. I have to. The obligation to keep your sanity on neutral mode is pressurized by society and the people who...

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I wrote something back in April. It was the 11th week of school and I felt lost. Week 11 What is it like to surround yourself with people who rarely care that you're there? They won't notice you didn't attend class or even if you are sitting in front of them. Your words are like vapour and you, yourself are merely a crack on the sidewalk.  Some who are lucky enough would consider you as a paradox -- a walking paradox. But some aren't as lucky.  Some would simply think you're a dust that they could just wave...

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[New York - Urban Cone] These are the years life tests your strength and commitment. This is the year where people who changed you leave to make a better version of themselves. This will be the year where you discover who you are.  I feel a little melancholy but I guess that has become a norm. I feel out of place I don't know where I stand. I feel too much I know, and I won't apologise. I want to leave this place so I can find where I belong, a place where I can call home. This...

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Sometimes you can't force yourself to be all sunshine and rainbows when the dark is stronger than you are.  I think I am slowly losing it. I don't have anything to say lately besides the usual girl talk with mims and Shasha. I still crave for an intellectual conversation where two parties can learn more from each other -- be it about politics, conspiracy theories or even a fucking band.  These are merely distractions though... Distractions from the real core problem which is my own thoughts. I was told that I tend to make a big deal out...

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Hey guys! I apologise for my absence as I've been busy bcs of the internship which I wholeheartedly adore and appreciate (no ragrets for the spontaneous email I sent to my boss once upon a time).  Such a funny thing life is, you don't always know what's bound to happen -- you make it happen(if God is willing) and it is usually a surprise, be it good or bad. I like it and I like where I am right now. I am currently drowning in total comfort like a certified couch potato in the TV room while trying...

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