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10:15
Furthermore, I have two old (bad) habits that do die hard; over-thinking and carrying the world on my shoulders -- there will always be a week or two in every month where I lose control, emotionally. I will cry randomly whether it would be in my school's library or while listening to a song in the car with people around -- my eyes will be a broken tap and I will feel unbelievably overwhelmed (no exaggeration). Some days it is difficult for me to hide it, other days I do manage to smile and laugh. I know that in order to live happily is to not care what others think, but my God, do I care what other people think. It is ridiculous on how much thoughts go through my head everyday wondering. It isn't like one of those 'I hope they like me' or what-not -- it is more to 'get a grip girl, no one likes to talk to a sad person' or 'they won't understand, just smile and laugh along'.
I won't go any further into details because it is getting deep here.. I just want to say that if you are having a rough day or week, do not worry, things will be alright eventually. If you cannot be alone with your thoughts, invite a friend over or watch a movie or go out and grab a cup of coffee at a cafe. There are plenty of things to do besides hiding in the dark all alone (like what I used to do).. as cheesy as it sounds, life is too short, live in the moment and soak in every bit of optimism as you are able!
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